Is it still me that makes you sweat?

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 12:58:31 GMT

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Cause I'm hopeful, hopeful for today.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 03:41:17 GMT

I just had lunch & meeting the boyf later! :) He's having a stomachache now luh tsk. Okay, Monday was spent on Esplanade rooftop, doing friendship bands & then to the library. Suntec City after that, we went to Candy Empire! :D I remember how Simaa & I used to take 56 all the way to Milennia Walk, buy 100g of chocolate & take all the way back again!! Hahaha those were the days when we were actually on good terms? Ohwell. Bought some sweets, chocolates & headed to Fountain of Wealth, talked shit, doing nothing but I like doing nothing wit you :)

We went to Ikea Tamp yesterday, was so tempted to buy some storage stuffs but thank God I didn't =/ Took a nap in the afternoon then we went for a run! Okay, so I've planned my outfit for today but I still don'tknw what shoes to wear! :( Anyone wanna go thrift shopping wit me? :D

PS. ZOUK FLEA THIS SATURDAY WIT PRIYA! :D

ACT! He doesn't read please =P

I MADE THIS!!!!!!!!!

Zig zag!!!

<33333333333333333333

Okay, I hope you enjoyed the photos!!! I'm off to choose what shoes to wear & bathe!!!!!! Be safe & I hope Mas Selamat will be caught today!! I am so scared to sleep okay! Cause he moves around AT NIGHT right?!?! & there is no point locking cause, he can climb over the gates what! & I LIVE BEHIND A FOREST!!!!!!

I MUST STOP SHOPPING

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 18:10:45 GMT

What I have spent in a week
1) two shirts from Bugis
2) loafers & peeptoes from Bianca
3) belt buckles
4) thread for friendship bands
5) cute hair clips!
6) rain boots from Urban Outfitters
7) headbands from Forever 21
8) Jumper from Forever 21
9) an Adidas cap for the boyf
10) two vintage diaries ( 1 for me & the boyf )
11) two geek specs
12) shades
13) an Andy Warhol charm

Omg, my mum has the right to disown me please. All this adds up to like more than 300?!!? Plus my allowance I've spent like 400 in a WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are not well to do, so this is definately not acceptable!!!! I think I should sell off some shirts that I have NEVER worn & start working. Anyone has offers on jobs that can let me work for a day only!?!? :D

Okay, I shall stop shopping for 3 days, find a job that allows me to get pay after a day's work, do all the friendship bands I can so I WILL STOP SHOPPING ONLINE, sell off tshirts that I have never worn. Okay, THREE DAYS!! Anyone needs tshirts please email me @ pulchritoode at gmail !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& if you have job offers, please call me too! & if I ask you online whether this is nice, please scold me because I should not be shopping! Okay, the main aim of this post is to show off my new RAINBOOTS! It costs like 58 bucks so far, but I think it'll be more, expensive to ship a boot man. BUT IT IS SO CUTE OKAY! & who cares if its hard to match!?!!? It is so cute, I don't careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

:D :D I know you like it. Alright, I am going to go take pictures of the clothes that I have never worn, post online, call the boyfriend then continue doing the bands! WOOOO JOGGING TOMORROW MORNING TOO! Healthy lifestyle ^^

PLEASE EMAIL ME IF YOU NEED TSHIRTS OKAY. & IF YOU HAVE A JOB OFFER! Help me earn some money so I can give it to my mother! I seriously feel damn bad for spending so much :(

OMG I JUST REALISED THAT WE CAUGHT LIKE TWO MOVIES LAST WEEK TOO!!! :O Gosh, I am so horrible, I spend so much on clothes, shoes, accessories & I watch so many movies! & I haven't even counted how much I spent on makeup =/ Okay, I shall stop watching movies & buy makeup!!!!!!!! I have all the backups I need alr ><

Times Square can't shine as bright as you,

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 18:29:58 GMT

Hello, its 2am now, met boyf at City Hall yesterday :) We headed to Toysrus to find the pin/badge maker but it was too expensive :( Anyone knows where to get cheaper ones?!?! We had Sarpino's, chese hotdog & guava juice for dinner, listened to some really awesome band with two female vocalists performing at Esplanade. It has been a long time since we went there :)

Today was so cold, I had my cardigan on the whole day! We had our lunch at our favourite place today! Rose Garden @ Far East, hotplatenoodles/rice & fried youtiao, mmhmmm I am so craving for it now! We should have gotten the 8bucks one or something eh ;) Booked the chamber at Cine & we caught Nightmare Detective, alright movie, pretty spooky though. We walked around, got free Coke Zero, bought super cute clips at some craft shop, bought thread to make stuffs for the boyf & the boyf got me shades from Forever 21 ! Ahhh, I love that store ;) Love you more baby.

& right now, after doing like two relationship bands ( according to the boyf, it's for him, so not friendship! ), I have been spreeing online. Forever 21's like, my favourite store, I love bows, F21 have a lot of clothes that has bows, I have their bow polka dot dress, their bow headbands, & guess what, THEY RELEASED MORE BOW HEADBANDS so I am gonna get like 2 of the new ones & I love love love love this jumper! But I do not know what color to get :(

BROWN OR PINK!! It is so cute right! I think I am getting the pink one! Hmmm I want more skirts :( My Target skirt's not here yet, urgh. I want a nice black plaited skirt!!!

Baby cycling around his neighbourhood..with his super small bike ( oh no, BMX! )

Toysrus! LOVE MY APPLE PRINT TUNIC :D

Our dinner

Me without specs, which is very, very rare.

Filing with the new emery board that we just bought :D

At Rose Garden! :D

BABY MADE FOR ME THIS! He replaced his spoilt adidas straps with this so I can hang in my bag :D I don't look nice in watches so this is really awesome! <3333

Our lunch!

Umbrella man.

CHAMBER!

Jave Chip Frappe :) ALL TIME FAVE!

:))))))))))))))))))))

CUTE RIGHT!!!!

SHADES!

Hahaha Coke zero!

& I FINALLY BOUGHT GEEKSPECS!!! You have no idea how upset I was to miss it the other time okay!!! & I managed to get TWO pairs <3333333 -jumps around Okay, I have beads & strings all around the floor & I haven't paid for the F21 jumper & headbands yet, so gotta go.

PS. HELLO SIEWLING! TALKING TO YOU ONLINE :D <3333

Hey Jude, don't be afraid.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 28 Feb 2008 17:26:05 GMT

We had our picnic at Fort Canning Park yesterday! Woke up, boiled the eggs, peel, pour pepper, makeup, brought butter & the usual stuffs I will bring when I go out. Baby bought tuna, cabbage, bread & newspapers :D We started to smash the eggs, pour the butter & mixwd the chilli tuna with it. It is so delicious okay!!!!!!! Stayed there for about 2 hours, then we caught a movie at The Cathay. Jumper!

It was good, I like it. Wouldn't it be cool to be one? :D The photos are taking 1000000 years to be uploaded so I shall talk about today first. Boyf & I went to the resevoir near his place & ran for about an hour, headed back to his place & had a very good nap cause we were both so tired :( I was so unfit okay, after a km, boyf was still jumping around, I was already dead =/ But the thought of having chopstick legs spurred me on! I shall run around my house tomorrow morning too :D I must be skinny qin!!

My Fayfey necklace came & I love the HelloKitty pen attached to it :D It has been so long since I have gotten a necklace so yay! Just got scarves online for baby & I, more hair clips from Bleudame & ordered more black leggings/stockings since there was a spree & even my mother agreed I need more of those, so yeah. I love, love love love love shopping! Should I get the Japanese Talking Watch from FredFlare? But I never wear watches =/ BUT IT IS SO CUTE :(

I just applied my Shiseido black mask 30 minutes ago cause the blackheads are making me very pissed off, so gave my face a good scrub, painted my nails hot pink & applied the mask. Shit, I just removed it & there are like some parts that are being so stubborn & not coming out :(

Smashing the eggs :D

Close up of our eggs.

YUMMY!!!!!!!

Mixed wit chilli tuna.

" Go squat there & pose! "

Touching up with my kabuki brush.

:D :D Without you, I am nothing.

My little land, he peeled off the newspapers surrounding me.

Posing as Mark Lee in Ah Long.

Hahaha the dancing scene, Mark Lee was so awesome in the movie!!

:D You can't really see my R2D2 ring, but it is super cute okay!!

" CHRISTOPHER LEE WITH FANN WONG ?!?! " face.
Eh, who with Fann Wong also not your problem please! HMPF

Slowly peeling & throwing away the cabbage..

" Save the environment, starting from me! "

Saturday Night Live!

At the cathay & ps :)

Death Note anime is really good ;) Did anyone catch the latest of One Tree Hill? I have never liked Peyton & looking at how bitchy she was this episode, I still don't like her but I am not rooting for Lindsay either. BRUCAS ! TEAM BRUCAS. I like Mia :D Her voice is so awesome, the musicians in this show are always this good eh, the quotes too, ahhh love tree hill. Alright, off to talk to the boyf & apply the eye mask that I have gotten online for so long but didn't use =/ Have a good day tomorrow ! ;)

Your love is the sweetest thing.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Tue, 26 Feb 2008 16:35:26 GMT

So, last friday was the end of our exams :D CIP paper was, well okay? She highlighted about RFID during CIP's revision lecture so I cannot blame anyone for losing like what, 30 marks on it cause I didn't go for the lecture :( what a way to punish me for skipping lectures but ohwell. Went to bugis with the boyf after that :)

Bought a really nice shirtdress at Hurs & for the boyf, a shirt at Haji Lane :D Hahaha, we immediately changed into it & headed to Lau Pa Sat for seafood :D The seafood was so good okay, we had lala, oyster omelette, STINGRAY. Those who are allergic to seafood are really missing out on a lot! We spent the rest of the night at Boat Quay :) It has been so long since we last hung out there, it was good, really good :) taking silly photos, lying on the benches, self timer photos, the bridge, the walk back to city hall, ahhh I love you baby :)

The very yummy coconut :D

NICE EH, his first green shirt :)

Our very yummy dinner :) EVERY PLATE IS CLEAN!

He lvoes his lala ;)

Boat Quay!

My new shirtdress! Yayyyyy

It couldn't fit on my ears :( I have big ears, urgh.

One of the silly self timer shots, hahaha.

Not very well taken, but I love it :)

We met for a short while on Saturday cause I had to go back for my dad's birthday celebration! While waiting for the boyf, bought two pouches for both of us at InQbox :D Hahaha they are so cute okay, the images can move :D

We bought two Topshop shoppers ( save the environment! ) one in yellow and in white (?) hahaha, yellow is for me :D Caught L Change The World this week & it is awesome! Hahah I think the way L moves around is so cute! Especially the way he types on the keyboard & how he can never stand straight, hahah.

Haji Lane, bugis street, town with my mother today. We went to Bianca @ Haji Lane & my mother got me a pair of BLACK LOAFERS & RED PEEPTOE HEELS :D Hahaha I have searched for MONTHS & MONTHS since last year for loafers but to no avail & I was always jealous of people who can show off their painted toe nails on the heels, whee, I am a happy girl :D & Bianca designs are so unique! Not only are they unique, they are super comfortable! The peeptoes are so soft okay! & THEY ARE ONLY AVAILABLE IN LIMITED QUANTITIES! :D Yes I know, it is very embarrassing to be wearing the same thing as another person =/

We had potato wedges at Mosi Cafe & there were people who were smoking sheesha, omg so tempting okay! PRIYA, NEXT WEEK OUR TURN RIGHT! :D

PRETTY RIGHT! Loafers are so hard to find okay! Especially one that is so pretty! :D & my mother actually said that I can order the rain boots from Target :D Omggggg

:D LOVE IT! These shoes will be a very advanced birthday present! My mother was very pissed with me cause I spent 300 bucks in a week last week that she didn't even want to pay for the food I ate just now! Pfft, she only agreed to get the loafers & peeptoes cause I said it'll be for my birthday, haha ohwell, love it sooooo much :) my wardrobe is like bursting with red colors but heck, I love red :D Can't wait for the new collection of Bianca to be out :D There was this two toned flats that was SO NICE okay, size 35, sigh, why must I be a size 37 :(

I am like slowly starting a shoe/bag collection, omg, I cant imagine what my grandmother will nag on after she see how many pairs of shoes I have. Seriously, she complains that I have UGLY accessories yet she steals one of it when she is going out & tells my sister not to tell me ( what a GREAT example she is setting ). She said I am selfish, I do not share my bags with my sister & let her bring them to school. Wtf, all I have are HANDBAGS, seriously, my SISTER is in PRIMARY school. See how unreasonable she is?

She told me how my cousin is NOT like me, how she doesn't have enough pairs of jeans & I have so many. For the record, I only have 7 pairs of jeans, the boyf has THIRTY THREE. If a boy can have so many, I don't see how 7 is a lot. & she asks why I need so many dresses when I cannot even wear it to school ( HELLO THE SCHOOL RULES SAYS NO SLIPPERS NOT NO DRESSES YET MORE THEN 90% OF THE SCHOOL POPULATION ARE IN SLIPPERS OKAY ) Hello, I only have ONE wardrobe of clothes.

I LOVE DRESSING UP, IS IT WRONG?! I love matching my top/dress to my shoes, I like putting on makeup, I like doing my hair to fit my outfit, I like matching my bag/accessories to the outfit I am wearing that day,wrong?

& when I had my exams, the television is on so loud & when we ask her to make it softer she goes " are you really studying " then my DEAREST COUSIN IS HAVING 10 PROJECTS, so we all have to keep quiet & all. Fucking hell, I know he is a GUY, but do you have to be THAT realistic? She reminded us to not go his room for like 20 times a day & when I asked her only ONCE to lower down the volume, she refused! You might think I am a bitch for saying all this, but seriously, just go live with her for a day, then you have the right to judge me. I swear I always thought my grandmother was the best. Who knew.

Alright, picnic with the boyf tomorrow! Gonna prepare eye mayo sandwich ( my favourite ) , have to search online for more recipes now. Btw, Death Note anime is really nice! :D

Ooh, I realised that I always see Siewling when I go out on Sundays! Hahaha we really have great telepathy :D LOVE YOU GIRL <33333

Will you still love me in the morning?

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:12:25 GMT

Thanks for singing a song in Chinese for me baby :) Been spending way way way too much lately, photos soon, tomorrow? I have been watching Lipstick Jungle/Cashmere Mafia. I love Victory Ford's style, ahhhh Lindsay is really pretty :) & it was my dad's birthday just now, the family went out & my mother got him a Manchester United jersey. & my uncle was wearing his Arsenal's, my cousin was wearing his Liverpool's + my brother in his Chelsea gear it was like, what, the big showdown or something. I'm like, neutral, I support any team that has an English player which is all of it so, ohwell.

EXAMS ARE OVER :D I hope to get a job soon, anyone hiring? Very happy with my purchases lately, some purchased during a sale, & when you buy things during a sale, you are actually SAVING money! :D I need to lose weight soon, during the exam period, more time was spent on snacking then mugging. Ohwell, why are shows on books that I love ALWAYS change the storyline?! I mean, KIRBY DID NOT SAY THAT HE SEXUALLY HARRASSED NICO! He LOVED her. Urgh, well I am glad Shane didn't divorce Wendy, but still. I hope they do NOT come out ANY series on the Shopaholic novels. Don't spoil my image of Becky please. She is EVERY shopaholic's hero, so pleaseeeee :(

Okay, does the Marie France slimming wrap really work? Nevermind, I shall start running !!!! Okay, gonna go paint my nails, finally have the time to do it :D

Cashmere mafia.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 21 Feb 2008 02:03:45 GMT

You said I was great. You said I could be great. You said we were destined to be together. You said it to the world, you said it to me, I love you baby! :)

LAMLAM WHY YOU STILL HAVENT WAKE UP. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET AT 10 AT WHITE SANDS. NOW ITS TEN ALREADY. Ohwell, by the time I finish bathing you better wake up ah!

Cause we are finally free tonight.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 05:46:31 GMT

Microeconomics suck, all the questions seem to have two answers each when each seems like its the answer but yet SOMETHING says it isn't the answer. Fuck. I never remember Macroeconomics being so bad :( Stats tomorrow, probability, gahhhh I couldn't do it in Secondary School so many times till my tutor got so fed up & told me to jsut skip it when I see it during O's. & now, it is coming back to haunt me in a much harder version :(

Sigh, I got gpa 3.075 last sem & my dad was already like !!!!!!!! I think I can only get like what, gpa 1 this semester & it is good enough considering how many lectures I attended this semester & how many tutorials I skipped :( & if he found out I can say bye bye to freedom already. Anyway, gonna start mugging already. I miss the tution people :( All of us are just busy with our own stuffs now, meet up soon please? :(

Btw, my jellies broke halfway & I am too stingy to buy myself a pair of slippers cause I never wear slippers so I will be wasting money =/ Ahhhh, pissed off.

OHWELL, my bleudame hair accessories arrived ^^ Wooo, she lives next to IMM & since I am mugging at the library, might as well go & collect later :) -beams hope I am able to walk with spoilt jellies. urgh

Avatar firfir

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 07:34:39 GMT

=D written by my eyeliner, mugging wit fir at Jurong East Library now, hes watching Avatar & chatting online while I am mugging microecons :( Hate it, it is worse then stats..urghhhh baby keep wanting me to *** *** **** hahah weirdo, now he is singing away, goodness, alright, first paper on Monday, wish me luck pleaseeeeeeeeeeee.

I saw, I came, I conquer

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 18:08:23 GMT

Yesterday was the most perfect Monday, ever <3 Mugged with fir till 5ish at Jurong East library till 4ish then we went to Chinatown, Ann Siang Hill. That place is really really nice ! If not for all the hills, ohwell walked around Chinatown then we headed to Little India but we didn't know where to go so off we went to Bugis Street! :D Bought fir 2 shirts + wallet & a shirt + wallet for myself too -beams The wallets are super cute okay, pictures later ;)

We went to Haji Lane after that, House of Japan <3333 CORDUROY JEANS AT 5BUCKS! How to resist, hahaha so fir got a light brown one & a light grey one for yours truly :D 5 bucksssssssss. Wooooo, saw a tote I like at one of the shops but 30++ so, nevermind.

Today was spent mugging, again :( Saw Louisure while walking to the library :D Watched Avatar wit fir after each chapter I revised. Hahah now I know why fir's SO addicted to Avatar! It is really really nice! Zuko <3333 hahahaha I hope the writers stop striking :( I want Avatar & Gossip Girl to continue airing. Urgh. Btw, we only had a total of 9 bucks today & we managed to survive! :D Hahaha I bought 5 bucks hoping I will not be tempted to go down to town to shop or catch a movie but ohwell, I brought my Ibanking device =/

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Outfit of the day! I love my shirt :D MY BOYFRIEND THINKS HES MR COOL. Hahaha got it at a steal at Choiceshirt.com clearance :)

Bugis Street !

The wallets! :D

Fir's :) Rebel without a cause!

I LOVE MINE :D Hahaha PMS! Be Afraid, be very afraid ;)

How the inside looks like!

The shirts :)

At Ann Siang Hill!

Mugging today, urgh hate mugging =/

My 17teen tote, ugly notes & handphone sock.

Stupid Econs =/

My favourite-test boy :)

Yes we wore our new shirts, already. We are very kiasu & like to wear new clothes :D Hahahaha alright, gotta go, 2am alreadyyyyy mugmugmug.

When I look at the stars, I feel like myself.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sun, 10 Feb 2008 07:19:28 GMT

Hello, chinese new year sucked, we went visiting & I felt really out of place cause I was wearing my Indiesin dress + purple stockings & guess what all my uncles wore? Polo tshirt and shorts. & my cousins were really annoying, I thought only aunts + uncles will be like " omg qin why purple stockings! " " WHY PUT SO MANY BANGLES ! " " ONE NECKLACE ENOUGH ALREADY QIN " " HEADBANDS VERY IN NOW AH? " " OMG BERET! " They added on to it & went " nowadays ah lians all like this " FUCK YOU.

Yesterday was fir & I's two years :) To those who didn't think that interracial couples can make it, fuck you, we will last for many many more years okay ! Quarreled on our anni, pretty bad quarrel but glad we worked it out :) Shopping at Arab Street & town, bought 4 bangles at Arab Street for 7 bucks only, one of it I even bought online for 5 bucks okay. Urgh. & Topshop was having a buy one get one free for accessories, this bangle was already discounted from 13 to 3 yet they gave another one free, whooo. Love love bangles ;)

Finger food at Bugis ( tom yam otah on toast & YELLAFELLAS! ), dinner at Swensens, turkish ice cream, mmmhmm perfect :) If only more shops were open, grrrr. I went shopping ti my mum & dad on friday, bought a beret at River Island ;) 45 to 20 okay, how to resist, wooo. DAMN HAPPY WITH MY RECENT PURCHASES, hjahahaha shopping's the best man.

<3 this! :D

=D Headbands are cool okay. & the last one's from Forever21, 4 bucks! Whee.

Haji Lane! All the shops were closed though :(

Baby with his black spectacles! Copyfir.

YELLAFELLAS AT BUGIS JUNCTION BASEMENT. Omg, pure potatoes okay, super duper nice, SOMEONE said " potatoes only, mac's one also nice " end up snatching it from me :(

!!!! POTATOES ONLY.

Yay to cheap thrills.

Someone emo, want to kill himself.

:D The Topshop blue bangle matches my stocknigs! Wooo.

First day of visiting

The kids!

My Mother.

My sister!

Baby & I awhile back, at the chamber at cine! ;)

I LOVE MY TUXEDO DRESS OKAY :D Super cute right?!?!? Hahaha & my hot pink flats from Torrid is loveeeeeeee -beams

Stoning at wheelock!

Okay, gotta go already!

Acessories Post!

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 16:48:11 GMT

This is my collection of necklaces.

Cherry necklace from imkikix, xoxo bottle cap necklace from fayfey, name necklace from spywithmylileye, vintage children's pendant from quixotic, chupa chups necklace & diamond ring :D

Swallow necklace from diva & cuffs necklace from uhh, I cant remember which online site =x

I love bangles (: I do not have much though :(

My pretty watch, cheap & nice.

Star bangles from Forever 21, sorry for the bad photo, using camera handphone :(

ONE OF MY FAVOURITES! From FuncDeko, Far East.

Just got this bone&resin bangle from a spree :)

Star bracelet from random shop at Far East.

Wooden Bangle.

Topshop bangles.

(: From Far East too.

From Diva :D

From Diva too.

Diva again, hahah.

I love rings :D Especially those really big ones.

Glitter, butterfly, unicorn, car & star ring :D

Flower, CHERRY! Cancer & heart ring.

GOOGLY EYE RINGS FROM FREDFLARE <3333 I love these rings, their eyes move! :D

Heart, mood, apple, random & rose ring :D

Owl necklace, belt like ring & milkshake ring :D

Mmhmm, I love acessories!! :D

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 02:49:32 GMT

boysaresmelly.wordpress.com

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 11:29:26 GMT

Why does everybody lie? Bad guys lie to get in your bed; good guys lie to get in your heart. & I'm the idiot who falls for it everytime.

It's not easy yknw, letting go of you, when every part of me is missing you.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 10:29:17 GMT

Calling out your name
You face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To see the state i'm in
It's like an endless fight i never seem to win

I miss you Firdaus, I honestly hope she loves you more than I do, if not she doesn't deserve you ): If anything goes wrong, I am still an option that you have. When you're suddenly single, holidays seem worse den school days & weekends?! Oh, lets not start on that. School's been fine, I have really nice classmates :) Butbutbut, they'll never be able to replace you, never. I can't believe you thought they did. I love you w/o trying, its always been this way.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 03:00:58 GMT

Now I'm saving all my loving for someone whose loving me.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:27:52 GMT

This time I'll be alright, my heart cannot get any worse.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Mon, 11 Jun 2007 15:51:36 GMT

Maybe you just didn't love me enough. "

" I wish you'd died rather than left me, that's how much I love you. "

" That is a terrible thing to say. "

" Is it? I think it's the biggest compliment I've ever paid you. If I hadn't loved you so much, I could have let you go more easily. As it is, I'm stuck wit perpetual grief. Logically, true love would mean that I just wanted you to be happy somewhere, even if it wasn't wit me. That isn't the case. I dont want you to be unhappy, but I just don't want you to be. "

I'm sorry that I hurt you, please don't think that this is easy. I'll always love you in the way I think I should. I love you Firdaus. Always&forever. I hope she really loves you.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 04:13:29 GMT

如果我爱上  你的笑容
要怎么收藏  要怎么拥有
如果你快乐  不是为我
会不会放手  其实才是拥有
知足的快乐  叫我忍受心痛

It gets harder everyday. I shouldn't love you but I want you, I just can't turn away.
& I don't know how to be fine when I'm not cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop.

Just so yknw, this feeling's taking control of me & I can't help it.
Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to.

It's getting hard to be around you, there's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to hide the feelings & look the other way?
This emptiness is killing me & I'm wondering why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize, it .was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here.

Note to self : I miss you terribly

Just so yknw.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 15:24:01 GMT

Dear ___,
Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night, this idle hour just wont pass.
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would, didn't think you'd feel so far away.
& so go past the lights & all the excuses, you could have left "sincerely yours".
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you, will be said in this letter, then burned away, so you never realize, I'm here.

I'm thinking of your vague reply, so I can understand/
Why we put this at rest, why we forget to say that we were leaving & say that we were sorry.
But I still miss your summer perfume, this cold air brings in such a distance to us, such a painful distance.
& I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now, so I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart.
This burning heart is getting old & while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor, head down to hide the tears, I've realized.

I've finally realized that you were never meant for me.

I hope she loves you, more than I do.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 05:39:22 GMT

Remember this? Our first kiss. My happiness, could have been, you. How do you cope when the one you love is wit somebody else & theres nothing you can do about it. I gotta take it though its heartbreaking. Its something that I had to do but nobody said that it would hurt so bad.
So how do I live?
How do I deal without you?

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
作不成的爱人　变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不作你的朋友

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sun, 27 May 2007 17:11:47 GMT

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call but I couldn't fight it, I guess I was weak & couldn't even hide it & so I surrender just to hear your voice. I'm sorry about last night. I shouldn't love you, but I want to. I want to..I tried letting go, its hard & I don't want to.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 26 May 2007 07:07:24 GMT

Dear ____,

If i were blue, would you be there for me?
& whisper in my ear thats okay. Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight & say you love me one more time. If I feel good, would you slowdance with me & touch my lips with tender loving care. Would you die for me, would you run with me & never look back.
Would you be there to love, to be with me? Would you swear that your love is always true? Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

If I will wait, would you still think of me? & wished that you could hold me now. Would you die for me, would you run with me, all the way.

Would you be there to save my soul tonight? Would you swear that you love is always true? Would you swear that you'll always be there, to kiss my pain away?

Signed, sincerely me.

pulchritoode@gmail.com — Sat, 19 May 2007 05:07:03 GMT

PRAWNING <33333 i love my classmates :D